Darling – I need my SASS back…Once upon a time, I was a big city girl, chasing her big city dreams. Refusing to let anything or anyone stand in my way, I found myself immersed in the glamour of Hollywood, working in TV & Film, Music, Beauty, and eventually transitioning into the world of Kid’s fashion. Coming straight out of University with nothing in my pocket but a couple purple Canadian dollar bills, my boyfriend (now husband) with the same dreams and bank stats, our two ridiculously adorable but smelly dogs, and our obnoxious white Christmas tree to remind us of home, I searched for a life surrounded by Creative Thinkers and Artists. We even had a Hollywood wedding – red carpet and all. We hobnobbed with familiar faces we once had posters of on our walls, attended lavish parties, ate expensive meals, and went on extravagant trips we essentially could not afford. All this, and a very ahem… colorful credit history to prove it.
After 10 years, we decided to make a life shift. We had grandiose plans to have a basketball team of kids sporting George’s perfectly arched eyebrows, and my ‘tude, but our fate of infertility struggles led us down a different path. We finally had our firstborn with a lot of medical support, and moved back home to Canada to be closer to family. This is where I decided to tuck away my old extra self and completely immerse myself into the humbling (and rewarding) world of parenthood. Not once have I looked back until now. I love my life as mama, I love where we are now, and I love how we got here.
BUT….
For the last little while, I’ve been missing something – the very driving force that led me to follow my creative calling in the first place. I still have the fire in me, and the need to exercise my creative self. But after all these years of grief caused by years of miscarriages, feeling lost and overwhelmed with parenting, and underwhelmed by a lack of artistic stimulation – I began to realize that what I needed was my sass back.
I’m a work at home, aspiring mom boss, homeschool teacher to a resistant learner – right smack in the heart of toddlerville. In other words – I’m exhausted. But my ADHD mind is on high gear and I am ready to break through the distractions, head on, unleash my creative self, and find who I am not just as a mama, but as, well… me.
I’ve come to realize that although I don’t need the glimmer and glamour of the Hollywood spotlight (believe me, most days were far from glamorous), I need to find a way to fight the funk of mamahood, be the best mama I can be to these smallies of mine, while being the most creative version of me. The small glimpses of creativity that I have reintroduced into my life since becoming a mama, has not only brought more joy into my life, but has inadvertently affected how I am as a mom to my kiddos. By being more intentional with prioritizing my own interests, hobbies, and essentially bringing that creative sass back into my life ;I;am a more present and engaged parent. Prioritizing me, made me a better mom. Who would’ve thunk?
Join me on my ongoing journey to get my sass back as I continue to navigate the murky and wonderful waters of parenthood. And, if you’re on the hunt to get your sass back too, Mama…I see you.
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Sandra D` says
Hey girl! I’m sure you’ll find your sass again while continuing to be the best mama you can be! Just don’t forget to keep prioritizing your own interests and hobbies 🙂
Jess says
Oh! We all need to find our “us!” I totally get this!
Kimmy says
You got this mama!
Melissa Cushing says
Love this post and love the cute TShirts you guys are sporting in the picture 🙂 Lovely family and you’ve got this mama! You’ve got that sass and cannot wait to head back to read more 🙂
Ceci Rey says
I love this!!! Been there, done it did it, and currently doing it again! You will find your sass soon! 👓🍕🏨
vidya says
thanks for sharing your story; and i agree that parenthood changes each of us in so many ways, and for the better
i am on my journey to find more sass too so happy to join you there
Sonia Seivwright says
I love this. I feel I need my saas back too.
Danielle says
You can do this! Thank you for sharing your story.
Cathy says
Cute and interesting post! You provide solace to many mamas. We need our saas back.
Rosey says
It’s easy to get lost in everything else that’s important to you and forget yourself. I think others let it happen too because it’s such an easy progression to follow. We’ve all been there. Here’s to getting your sass back. 🙂
Deborah Brooks says
I think all moms go through this phase at some point. Toddlerhood is hard!b It gets better you will get your me time back it just might take a few years!
Sharon says
Things sure do change once you become a parent. But it is important to take care of yourself so that you can take care of others.
Sarah Mahmoud says
Everything changed when I became a mother.
Helen Little says
Totally feel you on this one – it’s hard not to get lost in motherhood! But you’re doing the right things. Sending love.
rachel says
YES! I’m so happy for you! I’ve been trying to get back to myself, too!!
Tina says
Deb!! Just listened to the intro to your new podcast. Can’t wait to join you and hear and learn more 💕 Love you cuz!